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Wednesday 27 May 2009

全营

刚参与了第二十五届全国大专佛青生活营。这次的营让我获益不少。好喜欢和他们相处。那种感觉是舒服的。渐渐找回学佛的那种热诚。只要和人相处就是学习的机会。这次的学习是超棒!在阴差阳错下,我当上了自己那组的组长。这也是学习的机会。感谢组里的成就,让我学习不少。

老实说,刚开始有点不适应,尤其是看到静坐的环节,真的有晕了一下!哈哈……不过,经过几天后的学习,开始习惯了。其实,有一些害怕静坐。正如继持师父所说的我害怕静坐是因为我有一颗脆弱的心。通过静坐,可以训练自己的心,让自己的心沉淀下来。这也可以训练自己的耐力和坚定的心。静坐让我可以好好集中于做一件事。所谓“活在当下”。上个学期,我没有“活在当下”。回想起,非常愧疚。自己的心也散涣了,不能好好集中。我觉得自己蛮有福报。因为我可以参与这次的营,并非每一个人都有如此的因缘。所以非常感恩。

很高兴能和师父喝茶、聊天……发问师父的问题也让我获益不浅。真的是法喜充满!有一天,听着、听着……继持师父讲的课,心里突然溢满法喜。那种开心的感觉是不能用言语来形容。里头也有不少好听的佛曲。嘻嘻……刚买了一个专辑,叫做《生命中的朋友》。里头的歌都很棒! XD
在这次的营里,也当上了副题3的主持人。在将近三百人面前讲话,真的有些紧张!讲着话时,手其实在颤抖着。哈哈……不过,应该没有多少人察觉吧!嘻嘻……

可是……因为某些事,我提早出营了。也许这叫“无常”吧!不过,没关系!这几天,我真的非常开心。每一天是如此的充实。如果营长允许让我明天进回营,我一定会赶回去。每一件事情的发生都是让我学习的机会。出营过后,持续工作是蛮重要,共修的力量也不可忽略。在学佛的路上,加油吧!感恩所有的一切,感恩所有人的成就。感恩大家,也祝福大家。阿弥陀佛。



Thursday 21 May 2009

Missing~

Will missing whole week~
So, I don't will update my blog during whole week.
Why?
Because go to Buddhist camp.
Keke...
See you after my camp.

*~HAVE A NICE DAY~*



Wednesday 20 May 2009

What should I do?





Are you a bad person?
Why got many friend say so?
Are you treat me cause of some purpose?
I'm confuse already...
Should I trust you?
Let the time prove every thing?
Confusing...........


Initial Point~

I was in ipoh after the facilitator workshop camp.
Hmm....This camp let me think a lot.
It also let me recognize something.
It's time to start all the things.
All start from initial point.
Make a decision.
After make it, don't feel regret.
Just dare to face the problem and settle it.
Finally, end up all the things.
You, will disappear in my life.
We just a friend only.
Don't have any feeling with you already.
Our story just a memory NOW.
Otherwise, please tell your girlfriend that don't write the nonsense thing
and we just a friend only.
Start from initial point nowadays...



Monday 11 May 2009

The END !!!!

Finally, our story end up here.
Thanks for bring me all the memory.
Whatever happy or sad, I appreciate it.
I learn a lot from it.
Thanks for your hurt and your harm.
It lets me be stronger than before
and
reinforced my determination.
I'll dare to face all the sadness, although it's how painful for me.
I know that I'll be getting fine soon.
Now, just release ALL.
Our story just a past tense.
Let it stop here and end up here.
No more chance for you to hurt me again.
So, you loss me forever.
Just like I loss you forever and ever too.
Let our story be a memory in our mind.
God will arrange all the things for us.
Goodbye......




Love you, Mum!




Happy mother day!

But...I did not back to Ipoh celebrated with my mum.

However, I had called my mum told that will replace it when I finish my exam.

I love you, Mum!

Thanks for sacrifice all the things to me =)




Saturday 9 May 2009

You will loss me forever~

“砰”……心有如玻璃被摔破了。
满地都是碎片的痕迹。
即使再怎样粘黏,已不是原本的样貌了。
就像是遗失了一小块拼图,再也不能拼回一个完整的图画。
心躺睡在泪海里似的。
泪似没完没了流个不停。
为什么要牵起已久的回忆?
或许那个拥抱根本是没必要的。
回忆被牵引起,却说:“现在还不是时候。”
你觉得你还不够好,还不能带给我真正的快乐。
你觉得的“好”,真的是对我好吗?
你有没有尝试问我,这真的是我想要的吗?
这真的是对我好吗?
别把你们自以为是的“好”牢套在我们女子的身上。
你们有问过我们吗?这并不是我们想要的。
为什么总是擅自帮我们作决定?

好自私!!!真的好自私!!!
你说,不想在一起后,因闹不合而分手,又再次失去我,再也没有机会在一起。
在这段单身的期间,如果遇到一个好的对象,你要我尝试去接受。
我真的不明白,你到底想怎样?
既然如此,就让我告诉你,机会错过了就没有了
机会不是时常有,错过了就是错过了。
既然你说,现在不是时候,那好吧!我尊重你的决定。
可是,我也要告诉你,你将会永远失去我。
永远、永远……失去我。

Friday 8 May 2009

Exam (4 out of 5)

Finish Business Law Exam today.
But...feel like it might be difficult to pass.
Hmm...maybe I should give some confident in this exam.
Finally, just left 1 paper.
After that, I will be free.
Yeah!!!!!!
Gambateh!!!!!!!


Wednesday 6 May 2009

近来的烦恼

人,总是在失去后,才懂得珍惜。
可是……会太迟吗?
知错能改固然是一件好事。
但,失去了就是失去了,一去不返,再也挽不回什么。
你的道歉对于我来说,已太迟。
这已经不能挽回一颗破碎的心。
只能说,一切由零开始。
别问我,有没有机会在一起?
这……我也不知道。
看到你有稍微的改变,我知道,当初的决定是没错的。
人好像很犯溅。
不经一事,不长一智。
总是要碰过钉子,才会懂得想。
失去了的感情,再也不能恢复原本的样貌。
即使再复合,我们是否能够突破彼此之间的一层隔膜?
我不懂,也不想去懂得。
对于我来说,失去了就是失去了,没有了就没有了。
害怕自己的心再次被你伤害 ,不敢再去靠近了。
你的出现再次打乱我的生活。
对你的感觉是如何?我,自己也不晓得。
看来,我得花一些时间去理清所有的问题。


Tuesday 5 May 2009

Finally~

Finally, my car finish repair.
Yeah!!!!!
Can back to Kampar tomorrow.
Wahaha....
Back to study~~
Have exam on Wednesday~
God bless me~
Hope can answer all.
Ermm....



Sunday 3 May 2009

~Car accident~

Bad luck!!!!!!!!!!!
Today, I went back to Ipoh.
I drove my own car and my friend drove another car.
While we reached Ipoh, I followed his car behind.
Suddenly, he braked his car.
So, I also braked my car.
But...a car which was behind me could not brake to a stop.
Then, my car hit by the car.
OMG!!!!!!!!!
Not my fault!!!!
The car can not slow down his speed
and
hit my car's boot.
How???
Of course he help me repair and pay it.
Haizz.....
Damn unlucky!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tomorrow, I still need to drive my car to that shop for repair it.
=.=



Saturday 2 May 2009

Final Exam(2 out of 5)

Finish 1 paper today.
Hmm....
Still know how to answer~
Just don't know correct or not...
Hope can score high mark in this paper.
Have 3 paper to go through on next week.
Gambateh!



Apologize

Am I too easy trust some one?
I very feel guilty for my friend.
If I know the true, then it will not happen.
Why I so stupid?
Must know the true from both side~
Not just hear from one side only...
Feel sorry about it...
I hurt you already.
I cry...but can't let the time back to before~
It's already past tense.
But...I really feel very very sorry~
I really appreciate you as my friend.
I don't know that gal will hide the true from us.
We just trust her and want help her only.
But, did not ask the true from you.
It was hurt you...make you angry and sad~
Hope you will forgive about it.
I hope that don't will effect our friendship.
God, Please don't let other things effect our friend relationship.
I really appreciate this friend.